this morning went to help uncle again. after work went to ah ma house for dinner. after dinner went home.
n i really cannot take it n i say them mum at 1 room, dad at another room both watching the same channel why cant they just on one 1 tv? like that i get shouted for nth CB. trying to help them save money yet get scold NBCB. n dad still have the cheek to say i nv give them money n nv pay a single thing why i kp so much. they also nv pay much LOL. fine being too nice end up this is what i get from them. have they ever think of my feeling? how i feel? what i want? my answer is NEVER. their mind only think of MONEY. they take my brother n sister to compare with me. say my brother get his pay he give them money FUCK YOU! say nice is give la. say not nice is they everyday give my brother pocket money, is there any different from giving money to my parents? even both my ah ma understand that $480 is not enough for me every month. what about my own parents? they know nth about me at all compare to others. $480 i got to pay my Hp bills, internet, petrol for bike, food i left with not much till the next pay day. haix. really feel very sad to have such parents that love MONEY. even mum go take care of ah ma still need my ah ma give my mum money if not she will nv go take care of ah ma. i told my ah ma when my parents gets older i will do this to them n ah ma laughs haa.
I really got lots of things inside my heart want to say out.
but i got nobody that is close n understand me well to say out accept YOU.
when i am sad YOU know what to do to make me happy.
when i am thinking of something YOU know what i want.
YOU made my life like a rainbow, now is just black n white.
now we r not even friends but strangers. :(
all is about YOU.
but this is all past.
i got to move on.
thank YOU for being there when i was upset.
GOOD BYE!
Xiao B!N
